I'm good at faking smiles

I find that it's really hard to get you out of my mind. It's just so damn hard! I keep on trying to not having any feelings towards you. But I just cant. Really, I cant! This is just so depressing, think I've reached that one point where I couldnt handle it any longer. I do feel like dying at times. If only I had the chance to turn back things, I should have not know you in the first place. But then, the funniest part is I just cant let you go, eventhough only god knows how painful it is, I can't even miss a single day without thinking about you. I tried to tell myself, this isnt real. But in the end we both know it is real. You just cant stop making me feel happy. You just cant stop making me smile! That's the thing. How can I move on when I fall for you even harder everyday ? Anyway, you must be wondering why the hell am I still hoping, why I'm hurting my own self ? Maybe you must be thinking that moving on is the best option for me right now. Well, you thought wrong. It's better this way. Faking smiles is one of my best ability. It's fine. I'm totally cool living with this constant pain. In the end, I'm grateful to have you as my 'friend'. Just never leave me Princess.