Let's start it all over

As I've been going through these massive miserable weeks, I've finally stood up with a decision that I'm not even  sure myself. In spite of all this crazy things happened around me, man I don't even know myself anymore, I was severely different before. Yea, 'Twenty Twelve' could have been better I suppose. With these words today, I've made a promise to myself, I'll  try, I need to  forget everything about her. After all, I just hope, one day she might somehow realise how big my love was to her, how sincere I am. Well, I wish you a happy life ahead.

You could say it's all over.

I'd say, 2012 has been the most cruel year ever and yet there's still more to come I suppose.
I don't know it's just that perhaps, I've just been overreacting, I don't know sometimes I don't feel that way. It's just sad, after what I've gone through. Sighs no one could ever imagine what it's like to be me right now, some of you guys might already killed yourself. Yea, dying. That's the only thing on my mind right now. Wish  I could have someone, who'd really cares.

No one could ever imagine

I honestly think, none of you could ever imagine what I've been through all this while. Two-Zero-One-Two huh ?  Yea it should have been a better year but it turned out to be something in opposite really. I feel dead. It's already October, darn it time flies really too fast. The finals coming in few more days and well obviously  I never am ready for it. And guess what I've just realised a thing here, all these days, no one cares about my feelings. They never do.

A part of me will always be waiting for you

No matter how hard you're trying to get over someone, I realised that we'll still have some sort of feeling for them. You start remembering the ways things used to be, and how they are now. And you sometimes hope that the new person in their life is still you, and everything is how it used to be, erasing all the bad things that happened. Time is supposed to make things better, but in love it I think it doesn't. Although we maybe someday we have been apart for a while,  have different loves & stuffs in our life, I'm sure I would still can't help wondering how your life is. 

Would you be my princess ?

I may not have the best of looks, the cutest smile, that kind of charming factor, I'm just really a dreamer, always dreaming of having you as the one and only, the one who really cares about me, the one who will accept me for who I really am. I need to prove the world that appearance is nowhere to be judged. I'll be here forever, waiting for your answer :-)

Why cant you see it ?

If I told you I missed you, would you care? If I told you I couldn't live without you, would you be there? If I told you I could be your everything, would you give me a chance? If I told you I could make you happy, would you believe it? If I told you you're the only one I think about, would you care ? Anyway why do humans need love ? I mean, why do I need to fall in love when I knew I'd get hurt in the end. I think I'm just so dumb and naive. I'm still young, never been to this kind of situation before. It's been hurting all the way. Now I know love is really a mess but yet, I'm still holding on this tiny little hope , one day you'll know how much you really mean to me.

Smile

Simply indulged, amazed, and fascinated by the way you made me laugh, the way you made me smile, the way you made me dying just to make sure you're all fine. Too bad that we can just be friends, eventhough I'm fallin for you even deeper each day :-)