Being in love with your best friend

Well, here you go. In all honesty, I'm in love with this one girl. I already know her for quite time since primary school. I've told her that I really like her that time but then what do you expect we're just 12 that time. We know nothing about love. Right after that one year , 2008, that was our last year together as schoolmate, and we rarely had a chance to see each other ever since. Only on facebook, but which she's not that active anyways. But, after about three years living this cruel world on our own particular ways, starting this year, we're now schoolmate again. Eventhough, we're not in the same class but then it's very exciting really, I get to see her again; everyday! It's like a dream came true. I never thought that we're gonna get to see each other again. I know, she might be thinking that I'm lying, well who's gonna believe it either if I'm saying that I do still like her until now. But, really its the truth! Then came that one moment where I just cant stand it anymore, I decided to let it all out to her by that one heart-filled text. It was such a huge day for me really but sadly it turned out to be a very hurtful and I just dont know exacly why. I keep on telling myself, you're fool Azhar. Why do you think she'll like you ? Few weeks later, finally I simply ask myself a thing. Why am I so stressed up hoping for something beyond this friendship ? Why? Maybe because I'm just so desperately in love with her ? Yea, maybe. The thing is still, why does the world has to be this cruel ? why is it we do have to fall for our best friend? Is it because we know we can trust them? Is it because we know them so well? *Sighs. I dont know. I'd rather die. I cared too much.